Entry #1
I think of my life as a spiritual journey of endless growth. One in which the deepest difficulty ends up a beauty, and in one in which love becomes infinite.
Entry #2
In that moment I realized that although I had made a decision that could influence the next decade of my life, nothing was certain. I guess as a young adult, one of the greatest decisions I have ever made is choosing where to go to college. Being born in a culture where family is very much involved in your life from start to finish, going abroad takes courage. I have always been -or at least aimed to be open-minded so going abroad was a must for me.
A mix between passion for design, and taking a leap lead me to Parsons in New York city. It has been difficult, real, different, surprising and amazingly rich all at the same time. I didn’t realize how real it was until I actually got here. Some days once I get into routine life I forget about how I am actually living what used to be my ‘future’ two years ago. When this happens its like I want to get ahead of myself and plan the next years of my life. But the more I grow the more I realize there is only so much planning one can do. At least for me, excessive planning sets limits, and I feel like at this point of my life limits actually keep me from growing.
Although this past decision has influenced me, is influencing me and will continue to influence me it will not define who I am. It is and it always will be a part of my life, and the source of many learning experiences but I feel that all decisions big and small play a part in who I am.
Entry #3
‘If only’ is a phrase that the more I grow the more I disregard. I’ve realized that I don’t really regret anything I’ve done in the past, and when I do I try to remember how pointless it is to regret something. Some may argue that I have not lived enough to regret things, and that being 20 is just the beginning. They may be right, and I may be entirely wrong but up until this moment in my life the way I have been raised and the way I have chosen to see life does not allow me any regrets.
To be honest I think everyone regrets things, because it is natural, the thing is I try not to give importance to them. For instance, if I regret not going to the yoga class when I had the time to do so, think about it and instantly I try to get over it since its over with and I am not there anymore. It even motivates me to do what I didn’t do next time or try something new. Of coarse during my life I may experience larger regrets, and I believe some may be very difficult and emotional but I feel like no matter what the regret I will learn something that will make me grow and that will make me more satisfied about life or about who I want to be.
Entry #4
“It started out as an ordinary day” is a phrase that is different for everyone. What is ordinary for who and why. Coming from a very closed and small rich society in Northern Mexico, moving to New York has made me learn a lot about perspective. Most are raised and think that their routine life is ordinary but when you put diverse people in one place like New York and have them all go about their lives, that’s when you realize ordinary means nothing.
It is like everyone is doing their own thing and living how they they feel they should be living or even forced to be living in some way. It is mind blowing to think that my going to class and sleeping day is a being on the street with no money or food day for someone else. I think one of the most important things to have in life is consciousness. From the moment I thought about this its been easier. Being conscious and aware that I am a person with a perspective, with a point of view, and with a way of seeing what is around me makes it easier to understand that others have that too.
Entry #5
This semester I decided to intern at a gallery just to gain experience. Although my main focus as a designer is not fine arts it is still a great learning experience for me at this time in my life. When I started I realized more and more that it wasn’t that it was hard or boring or anything else really -simply I was not as interested. The more I think about why I am not as interested as I thought I would be is because I don’t have a specific role. I have the title of an “intern” but at the end of the day what do titles mean if the performance that comes with it is not the one you want.
I enjoy going there, it is not as If I would quit just because of this, however now that I think about it, sometimes I feel that I have more potential, or that I shouldn’t be there. It is hard to explain but it is as if I have a role of being present and learning about gallery inner workings and it feels awkward because I have become less interested in the gallery world. This is conflicting but in a way it has really taught me about myself and what I want. Had I not been in this position I would really not know.
Entry #6
It is difficult for me to call this an experience because I don’t quite remember being born, but my birthday is very important to me and not important in the celebration aspect -rather the spiritual one. As I mentioned before family is HUGE in Mexico, to be honest it is everything. You go to a hospital in the US and there is a plus one with a patient, you go to one in Mexico, not only will the parents and brothers and sisters be there but cousins, grandparents and more. This being the case I am extremely close with my family most importantly my grandmother Acu. She is my mother’s mom and ever since I can remember we have had this special connection.
I am a libra. I was due to be born on September 25 but I was eventually born Tuesday October 2 1996 around 2pm. Unbelievably but true, Acu was born Tuesday October 2 1940 also around 2pm. I don’t believe in crazy things but my whole life this is one of those things I could never accept is a coincidence. It is too perfect yet too crazy! I have never really gone into it a lot, all I know is she is one of the most important people in my life, and one which I truly look up to.
Unusual things like these are what make life life for me. Love that is unexplainable and connections that bring us together in ways we cannot understand or even comprehend.
What I am looking to address in my manifesto:
•dealing with hardships
•trying new things
•getting to know myself
•what I care about
•what I believe in
•what truly matters to me vs. what society says should matter
DRAFT
It’s not about changing its about growing
It’s about staying true and accepting
It’s about not worrying about what you can’t control
It’s about breathing
It’s about remembering your roots
It’s about being comfortable in your own shoes
It’s about patience
It’s not about taking things personally
It’s not about assuming
It’s not about removable material goods
It’s about you
It’s about spirituality
It’s about love
It’s about difficulty
It’s about exploring
It’s about having control of attitude
It’s not about problems, its about creativity
It’s about letting go
It’s not about humans, its about all beings
It’s about energy
It’s all in you
drumm996 October 17, 2016
I really like that you went against the “if only” phrase because I agree that looking at past decisions as regrets isn’t as productive as seeing them as experiences you learned from. Overall, I appreciate your positive, open outlook
Lennon October 17, 2016
I love the connection between your first post and image. Your drawing perfectly compliments the fluidity of your statement.
witnh429 October 17, 2016
I really like your progression of drawings! Especially the last one – just because it is a single dot. It says a lot with so little. Your responses are very honest and refreshing.
leesv305 October 18, 2016
I think the last drawing for your manifesto draft says a lot about your spiritual feelings. It looks like the matter in the universe that you are both conscious and unaware off. The piece also looks very calm and quiet, yet it speaks loudly in its form.
Irene Inouye November 13, 2016
Very thoughtful writing with drawings that fit perfectly. There is a feel of spiritual grounding that is resonant. I appreciate the mindful tone in your writing. I see that you strive for consciousness and this reflects in your art and design work. I was touched by the special connection you have with your grandmother and how close you are with your family. Your solid values of caring for others must be a reflection on their examples as well as your own wisdom.