Rebecca Ramos
PUFY Seminar
10/03/16
Instructor Carrington Alvarez
Letters to save myself
To my lover,
I am writing you this letter because I haven’t heard from you in a while. You have been dodging my called so I feel like writing this is the only way to get what I have to say to you. You are my world and I want you back in my life. Not a lot of people fall in love in our world so it’s safe to say we are the lucky ones. The last time you spoke with me it was like as if you felt nothing anymore like the rest of the heartless souls in our lives. Why can’t you see how much I love you? But then again there are a lot of things you don’t see that you are. You think you are ugly with a weird laugh, you think everyone snickers at the way you dress, and you think people think your personality is dull. If only if you could see that none of it is true. If only you could see yourself through my eyes and then you would have any self-doubt whatsoever. Well anyways, please reply. I at least need to hear that you’re doing okay. Could you at least do that for me?
With love, A man with questions.
Dear Ex- Lover,
I am sorry that I have been avoiding having this conversation with you. I know this is extremely hard for you to understand but it must be said. I care about you more than you know and I wish the best for you. However, being with you is like walking with cinderblocks tied to my ankles. I have been with you for so long you see, and I feel as though I haven’t been able to walk on my own. I feel depressed and I feel like there is more to life than just this. I loved spending time with you I really did and I am sad that it has to be over but that is the thing, I know it’s over. We are no longer pushing each other to do more with our lives. We are no longer inspiring each other to be greater than the day before. We have become comfortable with each other. Every day is like a routine, we do the same things we go to the same restaurants we watch the same movies and make the same jokes. Nothing is exciting anymore and I believe that I am too young to have that problem in my life. I am too young for that. We should be experiencing new things every weekend. We should be a couple that the poor people look up to. I think the difference between me and you is that I know if I kept with this lifestyle for the rest of my life then I would regret it during my last days. I know that if I lived like this life forever that I would cry for a second life or a do-over. However, you are right in the sense that I am not comfortable with who I am. You could tell me a thousand times over that I am beautiful but it still wouldn’t cure how I feel about myself. The world we live in is ugly and every time I look in the mirror I feel the same as the world. I know this is harsh and I don’t mean to make you upset but I would rather slap you with the truth than kiss you with a lie. I have to be honest to you and more importantly I have to be honest to myself.
From, the one that got away.
To my lover ,
I refuse to believe that we cannot work this out. I have seen too many people around me die alone and sad and I know that I would ever find anyone else like you in this small world. We both were raised to think that love doesn’t exist. We both were told that what we have isn’t real and what we have is only temporary. We said we would beat the odds and we said we would be together forever. I guess what I’m trying to said is that I don’t know what changed your mind so suddenly. What can I do to change this? How can I help you get you through this stump that you’re in? Our world is dark and cold but when I am with you I feel warm and bright all over. Don’t take my sunshine away from me please. I don’t want to live in this dreary world without you. Please give yourself some time to think, I’ll always be waiting for you no matter what. I just need to know that there is something that I can do to fix this. I need answers.
From, A man who needs you.
Dear Ex- Lover ,
I feel like we are running in circles every time we talk. I hate hurting you I really do. I’ve have been unhappy for so long that it’s time for me to be selfish. It’s time for me to care about my well-being now and not how it’s going to make you feel. I have been putting your happiness as my top priority for so long and forgetting about mine. This relationship cannot go on any longer if you truly care about my happiness. I wish you the best and know that I will be happy again and that this is the best thing for me. This will be the last time you hear from me.
From, A woman who is fed up.
To my lover,
Please don’t do this. I cannot live without you. I know that we can make it work I know it! Please just come home and talk to me in person. I love you.
To my lover,
You still haven’t come home or answered my letter. Secretly I’m hoping my letter got lost in the mail because I cannot stand the thought of you not speaking to me again. Please let me know how you are and what is going on. I love you.
To my lover ,
Well I guess this is it. You really have had enough of me and there clearly nothing I can do. I just wish I could get one last response. I love you always.
From, a man whose heart is broken.
Reflection Bridge Project#2
My partner was Agnes, and she drew two very interesting insect/aquatic like creatures. When I first saw these creatures I thought that they looked sort of evil and they had this dark look to them so I decided to put a spin of my first impression of them and write a love story between the two of them. When the reader reads my letters they will never guess that these two creatures I picked are the one’s writing them to each other and I think that it would be surprising to the reader and also interesting.
When interviewing my partner, I asked where this world takes place and what the social system is like, she replied “The world they live in is underwater. The creatures are part of a hierarchy, these two animals are Gods and they are there to protect the creatures beneath them who are there to just worship them back.” I used this in the letters when I mentioned things that had to do with them being a role model to everyone else and that everyone looks up to them. Then I asked if there were any color in the world that these creatures live in, she replied “Only the hierarchy is color but everything else is colorless.” The Gods in this environment are the only ones that can see color which I found interesting because the creatures I picked were Gods yet they were both in black. These were the only two of the Gods that were black which made we want to give their world a little more color with a love story and add the little bit of affection and color into their lives.
Through my process of writing this love story, I tried to pick from my last relationship and how it made me feel stuck in one place. I put that feeling into the creature’s letters to one another and made it fit their environment and lifestyle they’re in. I wanted this story to be able to relate to the creatures and the reader which was a little difficult but I was able to make it work.
