My soundscape project will focus on my self-discovery and how I reacted when I first found out that I was red-green color blind. It was a very significant event in my life as it affected who I am and where it got me in life. I remembered clearly that the realization occurred when I was a sophomore in Biology class when my teacher was explaining about disorders. One of the presentation slide had an illustration of different-colored dots supposedly forming a number that is used for the color blind test. Everyone shouted the same answer when asked what they saw and I was the only person that perceived the illustration differently. On that very moment I realized that I was color blind and felt embarrassed of myself. After that discovery, I began to dig deeper into what it’s like being color blind and how it would affect my dreams of becoming a designer. Alas, it brought me to a point of despair knowing that some opportunities were completely vanishing out of my sight. I wasn’t able to go to any art schools back in Indonesia due to my deficiency, my career choices became more limited, and I had to deal with this uncertainty of being able to make it through as a color blind artist.
To illustrate that story in a sequence, there will be three parts to the audiovisual; before the moment, during the moment, and after the moment. The first color to represent the “before the moment” will be in white with the accompaniment of calming sounds. It’ll transition to trippy sounds with the color of red and green twirling into each other, depicting a visual of being red-green color blind and how the two colors are fusing into one another. The “after the moment” will display the color black and scratching/cracking sounds, to indicate the feeling of crumbling into pieces.
