“Describe a morning you woke without fear.”
No longer did I have to make sure her colostomy bag was changed. No longer did I have to wonder why she was suddenly being rushed to the hospital when she was fine just moments before. No longer did I have to try and figure out an end to her pain. But ultimately, no longer did I have to deal with the emotional burden that came with having to see a loved one in pain. This was the morning after my Lola (or grandmother) passed away. I woke up and knew I had nothing to be afraid of. Prior to her death, I was dreading the thought of having to live in a world without her, but in the end, there was nothing to fear as I realized I was not facing this loss alone. The moment my Lola left us, my family provided me with the stability I needed in order to heal and be lifted up from what was one of my lowest points in life. From then on, I was convinced that just as long as I had my family by my side, it is certain that nothing is impossible or unachievable.
Since she left us, I know my Lola has been watching over me and my family, except it was not until February 28 of this year that she has not had to do it alone for she was joined by my Lolo (or grandfather). Though the grieving and longing for them continues to this day, it comforts me to know that my grandparents are now in a place free of pain and suffering where they can continue to watch over me and my family and spiritually guide us in the right direction with God’s help.
TEN VERTICAL INTERROGATION QUESTIONS
- Why are the people that we love the ones that hurt us the most?
- How/when will you know you have lived life to the fullest?
- Is death something you can prepare for?
- Do you believe in love at all?
- Why is it hard for us to love ourselves/have more faith in ourselves?
- Why do we tend to watch sad movies/listen to sad music when we’re sad? Shouldn’t we be doing the opposite?
- Describe your worst case scenario for your life that does not involve death.
- Who has hurt you the most?
- Why is owning up to our mistakes so hard?
- Does everything really happen for a reason?
