Reading those words stings my eyes

Partly sad mostly happy

Because you change

I’ve changed

And I will change so much more

But how I felt and how I feel now may still have some similarities

But the differences are vast and wide like the Pacific and I feel stronger

I stand taller

I understand my feelings more

And why I get sad or anxious

But that’s life

C’est la vie

And that phrase will forever make me think of your couch and that blanket we shared

And the wine without the ice cubes because you were almost repulsed that I like my red cold

And I know I have more growing to do

I will always have more growing to do

But it isn’t overwhelming

Well at times it may be because c’est la fucking vie (please pardon my french)

But for the most part it’s intoxicating

Who I am right now might still be rocky

But I am more than I have ever been

And tomorrow I will work to be better still