The time I thought I was time-traveled 

The time I thought I was time-traveled 

After I was born, I was separated from my parents for four years. In these four years, the only thing I can recall is the dog that grew up with me, I named him ‘jump’. From which I was told, I was a devil itself before I went to school. I cut my mom’s new sheets because she wouldn’t let me eat ice-cream, or sometimes I use a candle to burn it. Out of interest, I used to bite people when I was young, because biting made me feel powerful. My dear cousin, unfortunately, is my victim. The most serious one, I almost bite off a piece on her arm. I finally stopped this violence until my grandfather slapped me on my face, the only time he ever used his hand on me. I used to like colorful clothes, and I used to buy them a lot. My previous daily life was to change clothes several times a day only for the purpose to please myself. My dear mama can’t stand this me, so she hid almost half of my clothes, which I found out just a day later. 

I loved school very much in the first and second grades of elementary. But at the beginning of the third grade, I hated it with all my passion. I couldn’t remember the specific reason, but I think it relates to boys. I went to an art school after graduating from elementary. I learned a traditional instrument there called ‘Erhu’. A brief introduction of this instrument is that among the 10 people begging on the roadside in China, more than half the probability that 5 people will use it to beg for money and food, because the instrument is best at making a sad voice, thereby creating a bleak atmosphere. I felt that my temperament is very unsuitable for learning this. My teacher is a strict person, and the title of a national level performer seems to let him do whatever he wants. I finally found a chance to get rid of him when he asked me how the pig died, his answer was: “ because it is too stupid.” I was very much offended because I thought he was telling me that I am stupid which he was. I decided to drop this kind of learning career like a hot pan which I did. 

I had a much different lifestyle after the age of 14. I like English, and I like America from all types of movies I have seen. I packed my suitcases, two of them, and crossed half of the planet by myself. I learn fast. I learn about myself fast. I fell in love with time alone. I can be in my room for three days as long as there are water and snacks with me. I often like to watch movies about fashion and romantic. I like to imagine that I am elsewhere when I am in a subway to school, or if I am someone else. I watch people. I watch their actions, and what clothes they wear. I found that I like to look at other people’s shoes at first sight, and slowly moves up. I never liked a rainy day in my entire life, but I love the snow in New York, it reminds me of many movie scenes.

I consider myself to be a nostalgic person. I do admit that I never really liked much to spent a long time with another person, I often don’t know what to say to them. But, I don’t have any negative emotions when I am with someone either.  I love animals. I love to have one of my own dogs someday. I am also afraid it will leave me. I like to think far ahead, or maybe it is a habit for me to think far ahead. I can’t make a choice between two things that I like. I am not really a history person which I often told by others that it is not good. I don’t like to remember all the dates for the wars we had and all the events in the textbook. People say that we learn from the past, which for a certain degree I agree with. I agree that we learn from our own past, but not necessarily from the past of others. I think experiences are the base of our knowledge. Experience creates knowledge but knowledge never creates experiences. I always wondered what is outside the universe. I had several thoughts about the time-travel. I believe it exists. Maybe some of us had traveled from the past, or from the future, and the time-travel tunnels disrupted their brains causing them to lose their memories. I might be one of them. There are only two situations that would happen to my brain, one of them is traffic jams, which means that there are many things going on at the same time in my mind, another one is emptiness, which means there is literally nothing going on in my mind. 

I would love to have my own studio one day, and also have a side job as a professor at some top world universities. That is my dream so far. But I consider it to be a temporary dream. Dreams can be changed as we grow older. I want to be creative, in other words, I want to do something that never has done before by human beings, which I think it is going to be really hard, but I don’t see why it cannot happen. I hope myself can cherish every moment of my life. The best time of my life is in the near future.