One day I hope I fall asleep to the sounds of the city and rain on my cheeks.
I am made of lace and tears; I am truly a mess yet infectiously organized. To be honest I have no idea where life will take me, but hopefully to a place where I can be happy. I try to be happy. . . although it is hard at times. Most days all I want to do is to lay around my bed and dance to cheesy 80s music videos. Sometimes I wish my life was a music video. Maybe that is what everyone strives for to find that true cohesive melody of one’s heart, and to take each step with excitement and purpose as if it was blocked out by a director. I, myself, am a whimsical being who loves glitter, gold, and lots of ribbons. I would rather live my life fully than having regrets, I have had too many people in my life resent the past and in that end up resenting their life itself. Life shouldn’t be what you dream of it should be more. . . not in a fantastical way, but it should nurture your soul letting you ride the waves of time. To condense my character into an alphabetical list I am caring, cautious, coquettish, frivolous, forgetful, forgiving, loving, (un) lucky, (a) mess, oblivious, observant, passionate, saccharin, sad (sometimes), (and finally) silly. I love to make the most of my time and uplift the people around me. To me, growth is the most important thing because there is a true beauty in the metamorphoses of self. I am a nervous star child with a halo of ever-changing curls, simply a whirlwind of words, and I could never be happier to be who I am right now.
Oh I hope one day to dance again to the feel of the hot sun on my skin
To feel the moon at night gently flicker against my lids at night
To dream and dream and see it so bright
To wake up from that wonderful dream and still know that I have everything
That life is not what it is meant to be
But what you put into you and me
I chose to do a video representation of who I am because I wanted to show others how I experience life. The whole film is set with me reflecting on my character on the subway. I find myself on the subway a lot; it is a place for me to think or to dream. I hope that through this film others will be able to understand my philosophy and thinking.
