In my final critique for studio I learned that I am able to produce impressive work. I have a high tendency to doubt myself, which has caused me to not enjoy many of the pieces I’ve made this semester and deem them as “bad” or “not successful.”. However, seeing my final design and how I chose to play with light made me feel like I had actually accomplished something. I struggled a lot with the concept for this project, and felt very unsatisfied with my first idea. Somehow I was able to turn things around in the last week and make something that worked completely. When I turned the lights off to show my lamp, everyone in my class said, “Wow” which made me feel really good. However, I realized that in that moment I should be more confident in the work that I produce going forward and that I should be the one to like what I have done.

This class has taught me a lot about literature. Along with its romantic qualities are its repulsive ones and both are equally as enticing and important to read. Personally, I feel that I started off the year strong with a story very close to my heart. However, as the weeks went on, I found myself confused about my writing as I was thrust into a world of assignments that took me out of my comfort zone. A lot of the time I felt lost, like things weren’t flowing like they usually had. In truth, things became very tough and suddenly I couldn’t find words to write. As I sit here now I am realizing that this state I am currently in, one where I am constantly searching for the right words, is probably the best thing that could’ve happened to me. Although the flow is distant, I am flooded with the ambition to retrieve it which has ultimately made me a better writer. I have realized it is okay to write things you don’t like and t0 constantly want to embellish them. I have learned it is best to have outside feedback and listen to what people have to say.

In terms of the myth project, I am feeling very shaky about my studio presentation. I am very confused about the concept and overall delivery of my art. However, I am able to take that nervousness and recognize it as that distant flow state which I believe will carry me into a satisfying final project.