An analysis of emotions
Story line:
An analysis of the emotions felt through a difficult experience.
The protagonist is walking through a hospital to go see her friend dying from cancer, she blocks out all emotions unconsciously but as she gets closer to her friend’s room everything starts to come to the surface until she breaks down weakly.
Process:
I wanted to make the piece personal for everyone so that they all see their own story in it so I decided not to show any faces.
I started the movie with very emotionally detached scenes of the city, showing people living their life, simple everyday things we walk by. As the film goes on we slowly start to feel more anxious and we delicately enter the life of the protagonist and see what is going on in her day, the emotions slowly build up until they reach their strongest point then the screen goes black giving the watcher time to understand and feel what they’ve just seen.
The last part shows two very long shots filmed in the dark. In the first one we can abstractly see someone sitting in the dark on a chair playing with something in their hands but we can’t see what it is, on the second scene we see the shadow on a wall of hands playing with this object.
To understand where this bracelet comes from I have to explain the story: When my friend passed away she gave bracelets to the people who were important to her and I didn’t get one this is why I don’t show the bracelet but only its shadow, it is more like a symbol but not something concrete. I chose this scene to be the last one because it shows the end of what can be felt, it is the last feeling I will feel about her, a mix between missing her, sadness and unfairness, there cannot be any scene after that it wouldn’t make sense.
I also didn’t put the bracelet at the beginning of the video because the bracelet represents her depth and the memory of her so it can’t be put in the scenes where she is still alive.
I decided to make this video now, about five years later, because I never understood what I felt on that day, I had no control over my emotions and they certainly played games with me throughout the whole day but I never understood them. I never wanted to talk about them either because it felt selfish. This video is selfish, it only shows my side of the story and doesn’t try to understand her at any point but I think that is necessary some times.
I decided to call this piece ‘An analysis of emotions’ because this is all it is, the story line isn’t necessarily important for it, it could be anything, what I really wanted to show were the emotions felt.
To create this film I went outside and filmed the streets on a sunny day, very still shots. I wanted to film in a hospital but was afraid I wasn’t aloud so I found alternatives like the Parsons corridors and with different angles and filters made it look like one.
There is one scene filmed in a real hospital, that is an old video I found on my phone.
For the first videos I used orange light and filters to create a warm mood and when we arrive in the first corridor scene the light slowly goes from orange to blue as the protagonist walks through it, I then put high contrasted blue filters for every other scene.
I have a lot of eye scenes to force the watchers to look right in them and force them to feel what the protagonist feels, they can’t run away from these emotions and I believe it creates a much stronger effect.
I composed the music myself and recorded every sound (walking, breathing, etc).
