I don’t think I myself have ever really delivered a difficult message to someone else. Probably because I am a very emotional person that I have learned to walk around other people’s feelings because I can’t handle hard conversations. Most difficult conversations I’ve had have always been directed towards me rather than me trying to confront a person.
The hardest conversation I have probably had was during the summer before starting college. My friends and I just returned from our senior year trip from Florida. We had a bit of a fight over how we were spending our last few days together, which ended up ruining the rest of the trip.
My friend Disha and I were getting antsy during the trip. Disha and I really wanted to take advantage of being in Florida and explore Miami, where as every day my other friends decided to lounge around on the beach all day.
Because of all the complaints, by the time we returned home my friends began shutting Disha and I out. After about a month of silence, Disha and I decided to confront all my other friends about the situation in which they ended up lashing out and saying things like we were never friends, to begin with even though we had known each other for almost ten years.
In the end, they ended up cutting Disha out of their lives, but I had been able to salvage my relationship with all of them. It wasn’t the same as before, but we found a way to move on and just not talk about the situation.
When I found a way to forgive my friends Disha began shutting me out and would stop talking to me through out our first year in college. It hurt at first, but as time passed, I grew used to the idea of never talking to her again even though we still remain distant “friends”. I wish I had enough strength to tell her that I feel like she completely replaced me in her life and that it hurts to be shut out. But at the same time, I could understand her position.
May be if I wasn’t so emotional and things between me and my other group of friends weren’t so complicated I may have approached her. At the same time, with college, I just feel like I have moved on and would rather not revisit the past.